The work I am producing now is centered around my own self-healing, physically and emotionally. Using my own body as the model, I paint images of trauma—often close ups of bruising and scars; this, in turn, becomes part of my own therapy and self-acceptance. In the second process, I must deconstruct my own upbringing as a light-skinned Nicaraguan American female, reflecting on Catholic traditions and symbolism as well as pagan rituals that become paired up with historical and cultural stories and events from Nicaragua. With these stories in hand, I’m able to depict my own story in the form of armor and dance, using characters for guidance in navigating my own questions. These characters represent not only a historical rebellion among the people of Nicaragua, but also a contemporary symbol used in a hostile political climate. Though I draw strength from these characters, I want my audience to understand through my performance that this does not solve nor dissolve the feeling of alienation fully. I no longer ask permission to be allowed to be part of my own culture, nor feel I have no right to it due to the color of my skin, but I do have to find my own place between the two worlds, celebrating how far I have come and how far I have left to go.